I was feeling all down about still being pregnant. I had a VERY difficult conversation with my doctor about choosing not to induce labor at this point. He was trying to persuade me into inducing labor yesterday. Am I uncomfortable and anxious? YES! I just want to wait a little bit longer. I was angry and hurt about how a doctor who delivers babies could be so rude and arrogant.
And then I had a moment when I saw a light, a little glimpse from God and realized that I am blessed beyond belief. I have carried this baby full term and I am able to have children…3. This delivery may not happened the way I want but I have someone who is bigger than me and his plans are way better. Will I still need to see this light more, this little reminder from God, most definitely because it is easy for me to forget that I always have God's grace and love in times of frustration, sorrow, and pain. And on this journey as a mother emotions that I never thought existed come from somewhere inside me. I am so thankful for not having to take this journey alone. I am so grateful for my earthly family and friends, especially my husband who supports and loves me through it all and I am most thankful for my heavenly father .
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