Wednesday, June 20, 2007

My Dear Korben

I know there will come a day when your strong-will will be a good thing.  And deep down I know it is a good quality now but my endurance to press forth with you is draining quickly.  I thank God everyday that he gives us what we need…because my strength is not sufficient alone.  I hope that you stand as strong on the morals and values I am instilling in you as you do when you are determined to get something you absolutely “need”.  Korben you are going to make a great salesman because your ability to negotiate, at age 3, is beyond belief. 

I am struggling with helping to shape this strong-will that God has blessed you with.  I am struggling with being the mother you need.  Any disciplinary actions I take don’t seem to phase you .  I want you to understand that there are consequences for your actions and choices, good and bad.

I want you to rest peacefully under my wings.  I want you to respect me as your mother. I want you to control your anger.  And I want these things because I love you too much not too care.

I was praying these things for you and I heard God speak to me loud and clear… As much as you long for these things in your son I long for these things in you. And I love you just as much and more as you love your son.  And I began to pray differently.  I prayed that as you grow you would see me praying for guidance, wisdom, and control, a control that comes from knowing God. I prayed that God would fully equip me with all I need to be the mother you need so that I can raise a Godly man.  I pray that you have a desire in your heart to know God.  That He would be your source of strength where ever you go.

I love you my dear son.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

A Masterpiece

Back in April, we did a 2 mile walk in Central Park, along with thousands of others, as a benefit for Parkinson’s disease.  We had the opportunity to create a team sign.  Korben and Kenzie created our team sign.

Here is a picture of a very proud Korben holding his sign high for all to see.

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Friday, June 8, 2007

It's Alive

Korben was balancing several Matchbox cars on a flat piece of train track while walking down the stairs (sound like a circus act for a 3 yr. old.). He was walking slow and steady.  I was rather proud that he was taking his time because this is not a pace that comes natural for him.  He is a fast and furious kind of kid.  I’m getting off topic here, back to the circus act.  Ironically (haha), two cars rolled off the track… cars…have wheels…wheels are round.  Simple.

Korben was extremely upset that these cars had “decided” to motivate themselves and leap off the track to take a joyride down the remainder of the stairs.  He yelled at his cars in his furious voice, “Stop being alive”.

I just love the funny things kids say.