I know there will come a day when your strong-will will be a good thing. And deep down I know it is a good quality now but my endurance to press forth with you is draining quickly. I thank God everyday that he gives us what we need…because my strength is not sufficient alone. I hope that you stand as strong on the morals and values I am instilling in you as you do when you are determined to get something you absolutely “need”. Korben you are going to make a great salesman because your ability to negotiate, at age 3, is beyond belief.
I am struggling with helping to shape this strong-will that God has blessed you with. I am struggling with being the mother you need. Any disciplinary actions I take don’t seem to phase you . I want you to understand that there are consequences for your actions and choices, good and bad.
I want you to rest peacefully under my wings. I want you to respect me as your mother. I want you to control your anger. And I want these things because I love you too much not too care.
I was praying these things for you and I heard God speak to me loud and clear… As much as you long for these things in your son I long for these things in you. And I love you just as much and more as you love your son. And I began to pray differently. I prayed that as you grow you would see me praying for guidance, wisdom, and control, a control that comes from knowing God. I prayed that God would fully equip me with all I need to be the mother you need so that I can raise a Godly man. I pray that you have a desire in your heart to know God. That He would be your source of strength where ever you go.
I love you my dear son.
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